Sunday, January 30, 2005
spent time wif dear todae...went his hse...his sis was at home... then chit chat n after which i do my tut work while he play game...annoyed by a stupid bloody hell facc reading assignment jam there for half a hour le... i wast uncomfortable wif e environment despite his sis was in e living room too... but was sad n hard 2 concentrate when her sis asked mi 2 turn e radio volume down... no choice not my hse... then her sis started smoking.... so dear knowing im uncomfortable wif it he brought out his therapy bottle to burn... after 30 mins his sis asked mi to blow off e fire from e bottle.. i was frustrated by e facc thing le so i didnt think much n juz use my mouth to blow in e end his sis was kind of sacrastic 2 mi "pls lor tis is not a candle"er, i felt sux cos i dun seem to be able to do anything right in front of her or in her presence... horrible feeling... tats when i started to feel uncomfortable plus hearing her classic piano music from her laptop juz irriates mi more...haiz but anyway is dear's sis wat to do...i juz felt horrible n sad abt myself... anyway nv eat anything from morning but dear went to buy hor fan up 4 mi... er...didnt really wanna eat cos beri full no idea y... anyway ate half packet of it...dear was a big eater thus he helped mi finish it despite he juz finish a packet of rice... pro pro... haha shall gain some weight 4 u? tsk tsk....
at nite watched some MTV channel =) my fav... 4got abt my amazing race... when i on chn 19 then realised i juz miss it... bloody hell.. after which went dear's room 2 chit chat again... oliver sms him so started 2 tok abt palm's thing...cos i felt unfair as steven kind of sack mi in silence n felt mi in suspense... horrible... then he mentioned tat ah siang dun like mi as he finds mi beri money minded...abit unfair la cos if he sae im lazy i dun mind la but i dunno la... then steven also kind of dun like mi i think cos im lazy n not serious but if is bcos i sort of "force" james 2 quit smoking it will be beri unfair 2 mi... cos i felt is e right thing for him, his health n his family also maybe us... but y others thinks tat im controlling him... well if tats so maybe i shd let him go n let him hav peace in his ears n i'll juz be e devil...let him seek his old/normal life...
felt hurt n unfair, plus lost my ear piece...n also he's like not obsersive it hurts mi more... i juz wanna do sth to keep my mind off these topics so got e urge 2 do my tut work... so went down 2 e coffee shop kind of ignore him cos i wanna get my mind off any thing tat is related 2 palms... nearly quarrel but i didnt cos my mind n soul r focusing on my facc tut... suddenly remembered tat he needs 2 wake up early tml so rushed 4 e bus... but he sent mi home... however i juz continued 2 do my work in e bus... wanna vomit cos e bus turned here n there made my vision blurred... he's angry i noe im unreasonable i noe but i juz dun wan 2 speak cos i'll onli make things worse when im moody... reached tampines send him 2 e bus stop his bus arrived kissed him gdbye... ronald called mi told him wat i feel... i mean im hurted... cos when im hardworking pp dun seem 2 recognise... when i realised it i become complacent pp recognise it... sux lor... aint i human or am i a slave/someone infinity 2 u all.. i love airport so i dun bear 2 leave palms... but maybe i shall go 2 duty free 2 work anyway there is better...haiz... moody is my mood right now...sorry dear...
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