Saturday, October 09, 2004
is scared to death juz now...happily toking 2 my mama then her face turn pale... she started laying down... then face n hands turned colour.. is beri scary! then tearing... wat happen? i nearly called e ambulance... so scary... but she dun wan...sae her leg in pain? huh... then i started massage 4 her... my hands now is tired... so scary... legs turning green...tears in her eyes... seriously now then i realised i hardly spend time wif her... to mi she's still young... tell mi she wanna zzz? huh no no... i kept toking n toking 2 keep her awake...come on lor i onli slept 2 hrs... so scary... i love her but i dun express my feelings 1... after 15 mins... she sae she ok le... gg out 2 orchard 2 help out in my aunt's shop? but is look so pale.. went 2 e kitchen got alot of med... some is my uncle's heart prob med... others i dunno wat, i dunno wats gg on in e family... anaemia med? so many med... heart prob med is over 10 diff kinds, then wats e rest? she cough much...is wan 2 vomit le...i noe.. but she still wan go orchard...hope she can be frank wif mi wats gg on... she onli smiled much n sae i m diff not e cold mi she noe... i cold towards her meh? hai...cos is she always nag at mi, been unreasonable n nv give mi e freedom i deserve 2 hav.... i think wan blame, blame e family i was borned in... frankly i dislike my family... but suan le... i love her still... but i nv express 1... im like tat... i dun express my feelings de... she shd noe...
i hope everything will be fine.. probs pls get lost shoooo! i hate to be fan! i love to lead a happy life... my life i hav been lucky throughout so pls let it be...naive...ya... but im like tat...an un`grown up child...as i sae in e previous post... i dislike to be unhappy...tats y i love 2 smile n laugh...anaemia? she last time pregrant also like tat? but i tot she recover le? now she is smiling 2 mi happily like a child... realli ok le ma... is scary... she love 2 act...
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