Sunday, September 05, 2004
so much thoughts in my mind alrite now, but i cant type it all here... very very very very sad, read weiqi's blog juz now, i noe she's toking abt mi... i noe... no1 is perfect, including mi.. since pri sch, i am nv good in triangle friendship (3 friends in a gang kind), i always end up toking to 1 more than e other, then eventually will end up breaking up or drifting away... i knew weiqi was angry ytd, guess she thinks i am givin her excuses or wat i dunno... there's nth i can sae anymore.. sec sch we seems close... sometimes will think is cos of sch work tats y we close, pg n mi's friendship is so much diff, we clink cos we had e common interest n we can joked abt anything... honestly i can sae i n pg more close lor... when sec 5 dunno wat happen ling² appear in our gp then pg hang out wif her, qi n mi hang out together... but still... i dunno la.. guess is my fault tat i nv ask qi along to hav dinner wif us (on e dae we ate fish n co), when she called mi i shd hav sae juz go n hang out wif us... haiz!! remember tat dae we went 4 sushi at marine parade, i can sense e tensed atsmosphere already... maybe she's rite i am using her.. i dunno... i hav no idea.. maybe i juz used everyone cos i hate e feeling of loneliness, i admit it if it is true...rite cry is all i can do... always friendship prob... maybe i spent too much time wif corn in e holidaes le cos of her breaking up... pei her whenever i am free cos i scared she will suicide n i nv spend time wif qi n e others... i am nv there 4 qi.. i dun understand her... or shd i sae i nv understand any of my friends at all, always is they understand mi but i dun understand them... sec 4 is emilia, pg n mi, emilia sae she felt extra in e group like she separating mi n pg, sec 5 is qi, mi, ling n pg... always is pg angry wif mi over things i dunno, i am juz insenstive nv noe pp is angry over mi... e word sorry maybe seems 2 numb qi le... nth i can do... yah i am e sort of person whu nv take e initiative to call pp nor sms pp, pp whu noe mi shd noe... n tis fact has caused problems... i guess i shd change... shd i? i sux la! i dunno wat i am toking abt la... i will be fine tml but e friendship will not.... often i wanna listen to watever pp sae n follow... can i listen to e views they had n follow e same path....? i shd hav follow it earlier n all these things will not even surfaced...but i cant juz judge another by wat i heard.. its unfair n selfish...i guess i shd hav follow earlier... all e things i heard....but to think abt it, all r true...ha...maybe not all friends treat u well truely, maybe i am 1 whu used another, maybe i took qi 4 granted ...maybe maybe...haiz i dunno wat i am toking abt la....
tok abt other things... glen sms mi sae i got work on sat n sun, 3-11 at e bar, working wif e big breast... shall put some cotton to enlarge my **** hahaha... haiz... still can laugh... haiz... so sian... got to bring 4ward my plans.... hope corn can make it on fri 2 go gym... n NO SWIMMING!!!
to suit my mood i upload e f.i.r wo men de ai....
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